I started back to work in February (you may have noticed a dramatic decrease in blog posts ie: none.) It has been really great to be back in the "adult world" and use my brain in new challenging ways and to have 8 dedicated hours a day where I don't have someone touching me. And the money of course if very stress relieving as well. It has opened up many new doors and fun possibilities. The whole last month and a half has felt very very positive and in a flow. So many great things have been happening lately, most exciting has been our new house! We move on Monday, but I will save the details of that excitement for another day.
Being back at work has made me treasure the time I do have with S. and really try to relish every moment. She is at this perfectly endearing stage right now where she is still very much a snugly, pudgy, nursing little babe of mine, but has also started doing all of these shockingly adorable things, like saying 'hi' in this cute little voice to the check-out clerk, or putting her arm out to help me put on her jacket, or kissing Harvey on the forehead. *heart tightening* I know that all too soon I will have a little kid running around saying intelligent things and I will look around wondering what happened to my baby. Part of me wishes that I could still be around her 24/7 to see every change. But another part of me knows that this new bit of separation is good. I see her looking adoringly at Edgar and just loving on him all the time and I know that it is good for them to have their alone mama-free time. But it is hard.
Know sweet one, that even when I am not near you, I am with you in my heart and my thoughts. I dream about the sweet new cape I am making for you, and the fun time we will have at the pool this weekend, and the snuggles I will give you when I get home. I cherish you, I cherish now. I love you.
